Food Is very Powerful and Controlling
I know that eating, when I am not hungry, is not helpful to my health.
My head knows that, but my head also tells me lies about food and how it can bring me joy and happiness.
I can come up with many reasons I may eat, even though I am not hungry.
Food isn’t evil and can be a good thing, when I eat it in the right way. Because I am hungry.
However, depending on the situation, I may give into my food centered thoughts and the reasons as to why I can justify eating.
I usually don’t feel real great after I choose to eat without being hungry.
Feeling sad and disappointed.
Our minds are so powerful.
I can’t ever understand how in my head, I can reason with myself as to why I need to change my focus and stop thinking about the food.
Then my other side starts talking and telling me all the reason why it is a good idea to eat, and how it is harmless.
REASONS I JUSTIFY EATING:
- Family time
- Punish myself
- Not waste food
- Can’t say ‘no’ in situation
Do you use any of these reasons to justify why you make a trip to the kitchen, or hop in the car to your favorite snack stop?
Why do we give food so much power?
It is amazing how I can seem strong, then in a heartbeat, my focus changes and I cave in. I feels like addiction. Because once I have that treat, I feel better. I feel comforted or rewarded.
Is food really a reward? The end result of not feeling well or gaining weight doesn’t seem like a reward to me.
I am learning through the Weigh Down program that I am not focusing on the one thing that can get my focus on track. The one thing that can help me to not cave into these desires. The one thing that doesn’t leave me feeling guilty about what I ate.
GOD. That’s the difference.
IT’S NOT ABOUT THE FOOD
I know there are pictures in this post of sweets and snacks. However, I am learning that sweets don’t have to be negative, evil food. It is how we use it.
On the flip side, people can be obsessed with any kind of food, not just sweets or junk food.
I believe that dieting can be just as powerful and controlling. Always focusing on what we need to be eating, when to eat, and what not to eat, is also obsessing about food!
It takes the same amount of focus.
When I fall off an eating routine that is meant to get me to my goal of weight loss . . . . the guilt and shame appear. It’s the same feeling I get when I do eat! A vicious cycle. I don’t believe that this is the life God wants for me.
THE MISSING PIECE
I am learning that my focus is what needs to change. I desire to focus on God, and not on the things of this earth.
It’s not the kinds of food I eat, the extra exercise, or going on a special diet. I can eat healthy and continue doing my walks and workouts, but I don’t have to focus on those as my way out of my weight issue.
I can focus on eating when I am hungry. Stop eating when I am full. And focusing on God, Especially when my mind wanders to the list of reasons why I can convince myself that it’s ok to go all out and eat!
This isn’t about religion. This is about relationship and focusing on God and surrendering to Him. Anything is possible with Him.
I believe in you.